ps

i tried to be good at something
but i ended up being nothing
i
was
smiling
even though i felt like crying
i felt so alone
like i was in all this on my own
i could only hurt myself
because there felt like nothing else
i was lying
and lying
no one knew what i was hiding
i wanted to die
and no one knew knew why
i'll just go to bed
and i hope to wake up dead