don't remind me

I continued to shrug it off
Act like I 
didn’t care
But I did
And I do
And it hurts when you constantly remind me
Of all the things I’m lacking
Of being 
alone
And
lonely

I didn’t choose this for myself you know

I don’t show it
Because it hurts
That I’m not 
wanted
needed
craved
adored
cherished

I don’t feel safe
In my skin
I’m lost
I have been lost
For so long,
I don’t know 
What I’m trying to 
Get back too.

Please stop, don’t remind me.